My Hugs with Amma in 2014 and the Past

Today is a day to celebrate a Guru, your spiritual or academic teacher in India, "Guru Purnima".

Because Amma is Indian and I went to go see her recently I thought I would dedicate this to her today.

Amma, "The Hugging Saint" has taught many through her words, but for me she has been more like a healer.

I went to go see Amma this past week and experienced something within myself that felt good in which I saw so much change and healing within myself.  The first time I went to go see Amma I was in the venue, not even close to where she was sitting on stage and I went into a no-mind state of being. In the midst of a hasty conversation I went into a state of peace and stillness. I started to laugh at this silly argument and decided that there was nothing wrong, that whatever will be, will be.  The person arguing with me saw this shift and felt my new state of being and so the conversation was interrupted with a kiss. This time I felt tranquil, but glowing inside. I felt I was in the field of love, but I could handle this new love vibration. I was use to being in this field, in this state of being so my body had no different effects from the usual. I was really happy about that. I was at peace with everyone, but mostly at peace with myself.

The first time I saw Amma three years ago, when I hugged her I started to cry and cry and then when I was taken away from her my kundalini went off and I was crying for about an hour after that. There was so much pain inside me then that I haven't healed. When I went to go hug Amma this time, I could barely look at her as my eyes couldn't handle her inner light. My eyes were twitching and I felt I was outside of my body as I was holding my daughter to approach her for a hug. As I lean in for a hug with my daughter in my arms, Amma chants something in my ear which was very different from the first time I saw her she would say "My daughter, My daughter" over and over again rocking me like a baby. This time she just held me in her bossom and at first I started to cry, but not over my sorrows but because I missed her light and then suddenly the crying stopped and suddenly I feel oneness with her and I begin to say "Ahhh" and she does the same. She lifts me up, looks at me in my eyes and says "I love you", I say, "I love you too!". I was in a state of bliss afterwards. You know those laugh-cries.

I then went to go see her the next day and I went to go hug her one more time, and this hug was different also, I felt so clear and wonderful. I felt that I was tuned up to the energy, I could look at her this time and I was in my body. I went to hug her and she again chanted in my ear and I felt such love, such beauty, such grace. When I got up she opened her mouth with a smile of excitement and threw rose peddles at me. I literally skipped away from her. I felt so wonderful.

She has embodied the Divine Mother and we are so lucky to experience her in our lifetimes. I surely feel lucky.